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November 30, 2006

I can't wait till the exams are over!
Tomorrow will be my last day studying at the library then it's home study from then on.

Hurrahhh. I'm so looking forward to after exams.

And then the moment of truth will come, when I start my enquiries.
And if all else fails, then perhaps I could set a date for my death anniversary. Joking.

-nIx- @ [[10:47 PM]]

November 28, 2006

One very happy (but sick) nixie. But happy beats sick 100 to 1. (:

Orchard in the morning for a short while then Vivo-ed. Watched Step Up and had my first attempt at Carls Junior. Yum. =D Rawr.<3<3 The sunshine always lights up my day.
Then to SGH to visit my grandma, then to pick up mum and eat and home. Tired. Goodnight!

-nIx- @ [[8:47 PM]]

November 26, 2006

I am one very happy(and distracted) bunny!

Nothing went into my head today. I don't know how to term it, maybe an overload. My brain just feel damn empty now. I don't even remember a single thing that I studied for 12hours today except those where my classmates quizzed me before while learning that subject while I was at others.

Yea. What the fish?

But then again............ =)

-nIx- @ [[11:38 PM]]

November 25, 2006

Idiot. Blah. Okay whatever.

There's always someone or something I don't quite understand.

I don't know but I wish I knew why.

I'd suppose it's argueable that the world don't owe me a thing?

Time to go back to studies before that horrible mood swings itself into action again.

-nIx- @ [[10:44 PM]]

Finishing my revision of my law module soon, hopefully by tomorrow, then moving on to 2.1 and at the same time hoping that chapter 2 will be stuck in my head without me even going through it and that logic will strike in my head for all the ??? that's filling my head for chapter 4 which I wasted 3 whole hours on and ended up with not much difference except a more frustrated me.
Then I hope I have more time to go back to law and tax.... and the killer 2.4.

Someone remind me to change the batteries of my already flat calculator.

And also, sometimes I think I'm just too self-centered. I don't know exactly which part of me is but it's definately not me keeping information to myself and not sharing them with friends. I wish I wasn't. Oh well. If this works out for me then I guess it's gonna be worth it.

I am probably saying this because I am
- drugged by the cough mixture
- sleepy since afternoon
- sick with no appetite.
Hurray.

I wish everything would go my way. Till then, I will never know. One thing for sure, the deadline for something I've promised myself has came and gone. I leave it all in your hands. Perhaps if things doesn't work out I'd extend it.... till the day I die?

-nIx- @ [[12:58 AM]]

November 21, 2006

`over&done.

13 or so more days to the exams and I'm still not on 2.1 and 2.4. Halleluyah. One more class on Saturday and then it's a marathon between studying at home and at the library.

I talk way too much at the library ; debate, actually. And I get just as distracted at the library when there's the laptops as I am at home. I waited an hour intending to play a game in the library but it took so long to load I couldn't play any at all. Heavenly. =)

-nIx- @ [[11:33 PM]]

November 20, 2006

SCV <3 love love. Cartoon Networkkkkkk. Muahaha. What a deprived childhood.

-nIx- @ [[9:35 PM]]

I can't wait till the 24th! I better get well by then. (:

-nIx- @ [[12:12 AM]]

November 19, 2006

The dumbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb bus driver.

-nIx- @ [[7:28 PM]]

November 18, 2006

I don't get it. How come some people can be as irritating as a bee? *BUZZZZZZZZZ* Yea, please do go away before I zap you dead. Geesh.

I know I'm not in a good mood but at least it's better than yesterday's and this afternoon's itch to go home.

Totally random stuff with sis today, like singing real loudly in my I've-got-cough voice, cutting my hair and then vacuuming them up and stuff like that. Horrible girls. It's now a fingerlength shorter but hey, at least the right and left sides are of the same length now, if anyone ever noticed in the first place. Then we went out for dinner because I was itching to go out(towning actually, to shop/windowshop?) but then I had that irritating urge to go home by 9+ and despite her protests of going home early and also her suggestion of walking home from the MRT, I managed to go home, both of us in one piece, and alive.

Chapter 9 and 10 of law are awaiting for me to be completed. Long chapters. Sigh. At least my self imposed restriction of tax shall be lifted at night/somewhere tomorrow where I find time to squeeze them in to do my tax questions! Wheepedo, something to look forward to for tomorrow.

It's late. Ciao.And you just mean so much ; now that I realised - too much till it cuts & leave deep scars behind sometimes.

-nIx- @ [[1:34 AM]]

November 16, 2006

And then there comes a point in time where you just get so frustrated and want to give up everything, everything but that very one thing you've always strived for. I know my priorities are kinda screwed up now but I don't mind it stays this way. I just want to get rid of this feeling. Go away please ):

If I lay here ;
if I just lay here,
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?

-nIx- @ [[10:30 PM]]

November 14, 2006

Why such a heavy burden?

Tell me right from wrong because I don't know. Either way I feel obliged to do so, on the other hand, it feels wrong, yet not so wrong. Somehow it just feels like a secret I've to keep to myself. It's a really awkward position. I wish I can disappear!

I'm just so worried about my future. Oh bother bother.

-nIx- @ [[11:26 PM]]

November 13, 2006

Tax! Lots of distraction. I took the bus home so I can see the bus drive past there. -.- But then again, it's way cheaper and takes almost the same duration as taking the bus, then mrt. So I think I shall try to bus there again. Woohoo.

-nIx- @ [[10:31 PM]]

It's just weird, weird, weird. Sometimes I feel like I'm such a bad friend, only to certain people. Guys can forget about me ever feeling bad... well almost all guys.

And yesterday I was carrying a phone with a deactivated sim card, not realising it till I board the bus, so was the day before yesterday. No wonder my phone stopped ringing incessantly.

So here goes to melissa(I don't know which) thank you for the sms.

Yesterday I met a new classmate who lives in Yishun. I don't like the awkward feeling of smiling and then there's constant silence when people don't click so I just kept talking and asking random questions. So I found another who's taking 4subjects this half of the year too!

Ayye. It's 1am now. Goodnight.

-nIx- @ [[12:23 AM]]

November 12, 2006

A picture speaks a thousand words. =)

-nIx- @ [[7:45 PM]]

THANK YOU EVERYONE. XD

Noch, yu shan, dennis, joel lyn, jasmine, desmond, calvin, belinda, aidan, melissa, shadow, angez, dasher. Sorry if there's repeats.

Thanks Joel for the mudpie and some kinda bread treat.

Thanks Lic, Des, Bob and elie for the necklace, the two LOVELY stitch and teenage cafe.

Thanks Jy, nick, Aidan, Sam and all the staff of New York New York for the wonderful dinner. Lotsa pics. And TWO birthday songs from the staff.

Love you all! <3. Shall upload pics tomorrow night. Off to sleep. Morning class tomorrow. =D

-nIx- @ [[12:22 AM]]

November 11, 2006

MOREEEE. Jing Xuan, oink, clifford, cy, byon.

I got my birthday song twice! Thank you so much. xD~ Rawrrrrrrrrrrrr.You make me the happiest person alive! I'm just too high. -.-

-nIx- @ [[12:56 AM]]

Thanks to all that wished me a happy birthday! =D
Not in order(because my memory's quite bad)
zj5711, luther, ACCA friend from friendster, lic, sherwyn, val, vig, angez, dasher, kathy, shaun, jun, bob.

Wonder what I said half a year ago. =/ I take it back, though I don't quite remember everything I wrote.

Whereeeeeeeeeeeee issssssss my song? =( Wakey?

-nIx- @ [[12:30 AM]]

November 10, 2006

My MP3 has lotsa charging to do. It went flattttttttttt. I want to go to the library to mock at those momos at the machine.

Attempting tax questions give me a big headache, but I don't care. I want it right the first and only time. Which idiot wants to retake. =p

-nIx- @ [[12:44 PM]]

November 09, 2006

At this rate I'm going, I think I can drop my 2.4. I decided to spend the last 1week mugging for it, else I'll just don't go for it if I think I can't make it.

I spent like 2.5hours attempting a maximum 20marks question, including working backwards and refering to the answer. I think I need 12.5hours for that supposedly 3hours paper in total.

I am SO drained. I need to study something else tomorrow.

My birthday is soon, someone offer to plan it for me please.

I mustn't be selfish to let your marks fly away just like that.

But I want a birthday song!

-nIx- @ [[11:17 PM]]

November 08, 2006

I haven't even touched my books for today. I feel so bad, yet so lazy.

Went to view the Singapore Biennale stuff at Tanglin camp, then to ISLAND CREAMERY(YUM) for ice cream, then to Bugis and Cityhall to SHOP.

Ok time to attempt at least a question.

-nIx- @ [[8:43 PM]]

November 07, 2006

Wahaha. Today I had my karma for laughing at others. Three of us went to buy a drink and after the two of them bought I told them maybe something might happen to me and it did turn out likewise. The machine koped my 60cents and no drink came out. =/

The same thing happened to the snack machine today, with a group of girls. But they were really determined and they kept shutting and opening the flapper. Was told by Jasmine she even saw them using rulers. The moral of the story is that girls are so much smarter then guys. They got it out in the end.

MY SIS IS BACK. (:

-nIx- @ [[11:57 PM]]

November 06, 2006

Today I've got my time mocking at guys and cursing at uncles.

First, I board the bus with double ezlink cards. So the machine goes beeping away then "Entry OK" then me not knowing what happened scanned again and the same thing happens so I walk away after seeing "Entry OK" for the second time.

Then comes the bus conductor and this stupid retarded uncle kept telling the bus conducter "ta you quo". At first the conductor don't understand what he's talking then the uncle repeats again MANY TIMES AND LOUDLY. The conductor just took his time scanning the others before coming to me then I just passed him two cards. Oh my tian the whole bus would have by then thought I never scanned my card. I really stared hard at that uncle. I wanted so very much to strangle him to death.

Then at the library we saw this group of people shaking the machine. Was bored so after quite some time Yu Shan and me decided to go to the vending machine. Bought milk(which turned out to be a whole cup of CREAM. Yucks is the word.), bought another cup of double espresso and then kept pouring the milk in. Drank till I got sick of it and nearly got a headache so I threw everything away. $1.20 into the bin.

Decided to get the snacks next. Saw a packet stuck at the left side. HAHAHA. Was tempted to go insert coins and get that packet out but luckily we didn't. We decided to select those on the right instead.

Then comes a 2nd group of people who wanted that stuck packet. $0.80 cents into the machine and their packet stacks onto the 1st packet. They're not happy so they insert another 80cents and it stacks onto the 2nd. And I can't stop laughing after that. The stupid guy goes to his friends and goes on to the third packet, same thing happened and the 1st group of guys starts laughing. Then goes his fourth attempt and then he managed to get all the 4packets except the stuck one. STUPID GUY. WAHAHA. He could have just went to Cheers and buy two huge packets with the money spent all because of one stuck packet he didn't get.

And now, I get so high whenever I see anyone go near the stupid machine. Wahaha. Stupid boys.

I am down to my last chapter for tax! Hurray. But I have 101 questions to bombard the teacher with. I hope he doesn't scold me for so many. I hope he doesn't say I don't pay attention because I really read before I ask my questions.

All the best to your exams! (:

-nIx- @ [[11:08 PM]]

November 05, 2006

I seem like the worst friend ever. But I can't afford to waste anymore time. Time is of essence. I just want that one day to shun away from reality..

-nIx- @ [[11:18 PM]]

I guess estimation's not that bad after all. I should have stayed in the library till closing today. Totally lost my concentration. I'm so gonna die soon.

Why?

-nIx- @ [[9:18 PM]]

November 04, 2006

BAHHHHHHH. Sometimes I do questions thinking I'd definately be right and it turns out otherwise. Smart move. I even did a question 3times and realised my mistake, then copy the wrong part of the answer down on a new sheet of paper.

There's just too many stuff in my mind now and studies don't seem to be the one with the top priority.

Ah dot. Why did I choose to get into this dilemma in the first place, why wasn't I able to get out after I fell in? Why does it have to happen again now when time is crucial?

What's gonna happen if things don't turn the way I want it to be?

I'm full of excuses for myself. What if I run out of them sometime soon?

What am I even doing here being online...?

-nIx- @ [[6:32 PM]]

November 03, 2006

`and let me wonder a little more-

Sometimes I just wonder why can't our brains be like hard disks - we delete what we don't want and keep all the happy memories at our cache, where we can recover them almost immediately everytime we want to reminisence everything about our lives.

I was browsing my emails and sent messages and I'm utterly astounded by the way I speak in such a crude manner to others. I'm sorry. Gomen nasai. I will definately make it up to you if life permits.

It really sucks being struck with guilt.

-nIx- @ [[11:57 AM]]

November 02, 2006

I conqured Mount Everest! Been doing chapter summaries since 11am. And I'm left with the HUGE chapters to tackle. 4 5 6 9 10 17 18

-nIx- @ [[10:01 PM]]

Drained. I have so much to cover, so much more.

So even if mine's good, and I read a better, someone else out there's gonna be best. And I can't phantom the fact someone else out there's gonna be way better. I don't know.

I ordered Mac and now I'm broke. I should have ordered pizza or something. It'd last longer and it'd be just just a few more dollars extra.

I wonder how I'm gonna survive the next few days. Enough slacking time to get back to mugging.

-nIx- @ [[4:01 PM]]

Haven't blog for the longest time, or so I think.

I got a good out of a bunch of about 8 to 10 in the class to get a good for my law essay(Refer to post dated 18/10/06). Hurray. And I didn't get any 500word essay too. =)

Today I have to go through law or I may die on Friday.

Off for now.

-nIx- @ [[1:25 AM]]

November 01, 2006

Double class yesterday. Rushed from one class to another venue for the other class. I bet the bread I ate wasn't fresh. I felt like vomiting halfway during 2nd class. It felt exactly like the time I had gastric flu. Suckerrrr. I wanted to leave during break but I felt better so I didn't. Who wants to miss out on class anyway.
Had to give away my cup of yummy soya drink away. =(

Tomorrow it won't be a wonder if I get smacked with a 500word essay because I haven't even studied what I'm supposed to. Oh bother.

-nIx- @ [[12:44 AM]]